Weird Day...

Today felt odd. There seems to be a strange energy in the air, a uncertain question that doesn't feel answered. I sense an uneasiness with the Universe that I can't quite describe. Whenever I feel this way, a dis-ease with the world around me, I try and get quiet, try to become as peaceful as I can within the confines of my own discomfort. There is a lot of negativity happening in the world,  and its disruptive. Being a sensitive,  sometimes not always a good thing, I think it really gets to me sometimes. I could never really put my finger on it in the past, just felt a sense of discomfort, of tension and concern. Now that I am vibrantly into holistics, I can pinpoint it. And even then, I have to stop and think "What the heck is going on?"

So yeah, today I felt off. Did it to you?  And it seems like things may take time to cool down, to catch up, to calm down.  But as the new year progresses forward, I've decided to challenge myself.  We all make resolutions, whether its at the top of the New Year or just any ol' day when we feel like it, we are always trying to change and better ourselves. Whether it be just to say hello to more people, or to really dive deeply into self awareness and go for it, we all at some point will try and escape our comfort zone and make a change.  And sometimes those changes don't come that easily. Our comfort zone is well, comfy. Pulling ourselves out of that can be tough.
So, I have made some resolutions, and I'll share them with you-  and I'll get to my challenge.
- Love more
- create more
- smile more
- travel more
- sleep more! (this one I really need)
And I come up with others here and there that I add. But what my challenge is, is to become more aware. Not in the sense that I wasn't, as I have always been very aware and open minded, but instead of focusing on how I feel in the moment, focusing on what the other person or people may be doing and feeling. Not that I didn't do this but here's what I mean. We all are inherently egotistical. I know you're saying " I am not!" I'm not saying this as a negative, I'm saying this as something we all do. Clearly some more than others, but we all do to some degree. Instead of acting out of love, our ego gets hurt and we lash out, and sometimes at the people we love. That sends the wrong message, when all were really trying to say is, "I love you, please hear me." And that comes from both sides. 
I consider myself a very compassionate and loving person, but the ego is very cunning. It likes to be fed and when it gets ignored it gets hurt and angry. So my challenge is to hear first, the words of the person who needs to be heard. with an open mind, with an open heart and with open ears.  I think I do that a lot, but I need to do this more. Because its important to me.
So this is what I am challenging you to do. There's a lot happening right now,  worry, fear, concern, because the ego has been ignored and now its angry and hurt.   Set aside your ego, listen to the words of people around you, listen with love and with an open heart. And if that isn't easy for you, get quiet about it. Meditate on it and listen. Instead of always needing to be heard, listen.  Now is the time for that, for your patience. Think of how freeing this will be for you. To hear, and to be aware.
Let me know your thoughts on this.  Be peaceful and take care.

Cheers.

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